PINOY MEN SOCIETY: 01/01/2010 - 02/01/2010

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Jan 30, 2010

I'm Gay

 
photo credit: ian felix alquiros photography

I once loved one man, he took my only heart
and right there in front of me, he ripped it apart
I know he didn't mean to, and the fault is mine to blame
but the guilt and pain remains all the same
but now I understand, why he ran away
now I understand why he didn't stay
he was afraid to love, and afraid to take a chance
he was afraid to leave and make another stance
he was afraid to make his mark on societies wall
he was afraid to take a leap, as he could fall
he would have rather stayed inside that rotting jail
he rather stay with society, even though I paid bail
he made his mind and stayed with society
even though he had his chance to be free
so now as I sit outside societies dream
I linger like a nightmare, making people scream
they say its just a phase, that I'll get over it soon
they say its a disease, like the werewolf and the moon
but deep down in my heart, I know it isn't so
because I have to be strong, so I can show
people like the one man who threw me in a bin
that no matter how hard they try, we will never give in!
cause what's the point of hurting us? so we can feel bad?
so we can understand what its like to be sad?
well we already know just how it feels
cause it is so hard for us to reveal
that we like the same sex, and who really gives a damn?
goes in the end we all still go all cold and clam
so who cares if I'm gay! I am proud to be
because in my world I take it as a victory
that I can make a choice and stand from the rest
be an individual and try my best
and kids at school may laugh at me and call nasty names
but you know what? it doesn't matter its all a game!
cause later on in life they will suddenly see
that the reason I was gay, was because it was me
so go on a call out names and raise your heads so high
but remember who I am, just before you die
remember that I was strong and managed to pull through
and remember that if I can do it, then so can you
so today I stand and say that I am proud to be gay
and if I had a choice... I'd have it no other way!
I'm Gay- mcky88

Jan 25, 2010

a night of dancing at che'lu



Working five days per week in a hotel industry is really kind of tiring. Together with my co-workers, we decided not to work on for our last day of duty that week and decided to hang out and party all night in one of the famous night places out here. "chelu" that's how we tag the place. Lights flickering, music jiving and everything! It was totally fun!

I was dancing and drinking with my friends. Then I get to notice this guy in black shirt. He was holding a bottle of RED HORSE in one hand and was staring at me. I was kind of disturbed with what he was doing, so I decided to have a seat. Then without hesitation he sat beside me and asked, "Can I dance with you?"

I answered, "I'm tired, I just want to have a seat for the moment."

He said, "Okay, I'll wait." And so he did.

He took hold of my hand and we went to the dance floor. He was gently holding me, but I hated his stares. He started to ask me some questions like "Whats your name?", "Where are you working?", "How old are you?" ... questions often asked in interviews.

I patiently answered all his never-ending questions. I did enjoy dancing with him. He'd hug me so tight and I never stopped him from doing that. He gently stroked my hair with his fingertips and said "I like you." YOU".

I was speechless, but I secretly smiled. I answered him, "Me too."

Wherever I went that night, he was always there and made sure that I was not pushed by other guys. When others would ask to have a dance with me, he would answer them back "She's mine."

We started dancing 10 in the evening and ended like almost 5 in the morning.
We sat side by side and he bit my back, held my hand tightly. We were like boyfriends and gaylfriends then.

Then came the sad part. We had to go home. Because I was so damn foolish thinking it would be best if he would be the first one who should ask for my number and Facebook account, I never asked him. He was in a hurry because his friends were already leaving him. He just gave me a kiss on the cheek and said,"I'll see you soon." I hated myself then for not finding out how to contact him.

This weekend I'll be going to that place again and I'm hoping that I'll find him there.

Jan 24, 2010

LIES...






                                       photo credit:  ian felix alquiros

The moments that we spent together, was it a lie? A fabulous and beautiful lie? I lay awake in bed, thinking about you and your convincing ways. I was such a fool to think that someone like you would love me, love me for who I am.

I know that I am different, but you should know, know that I thought that you would at least glance past my bruises and try to discern what I was thinking and feeling behind my mask.

I would die for you, but now I suppose that this relationship is over. Sometimes, I still think that you want to be friends, but I know it to be a one-way street, and in my heart, you are all that I desire, but, again, I know it to be a one-way street.

Is it a delightful dream, picturesque in every way, or is it a ghastly nightmare, with demons torturing my heart with razors and needles of artificial compassion? I believe the latter, because there is no one to comfort me after you leave. Love is a battlefield they say, and I seem to have lost the war.

I am a hunter, a hunter of something unreachable. You are the unreachable. Are you a falsehood? The horrifying trickery of my inadequate life? The inaccessible archangel of my imaginings?

Is this a game? If it is, I want to be your pawn, even if it means swallowing the monumental lies like bitter medicine.

Do you not understand that? Anything that I have done, let me make it right. Any wrongdoings committed by me need to be cleansed by your forgiveness. Do you not understand? I am craving your companionship, your fervor, your love!

I love you.

Jan 22, 2010

Anderson Cooper is Fricken AWESOME

I think Anderson Cooper is one of the coolest journalists on television today. He is currently in Haiti covering various stories and keeping the world  updated with what is happening there. I was reading his blog today and was amazed at a story he recently published. Anderson is no longer just covering the news. He is making it.

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Taken from Anderson's blog

In the Midst of Looting Chaos
by Anderson Cooper


We were covering another story when we heard shots being fired. We ran toward the sound and found a store being looted. Two Haitian police officers were occasionally firing into the air to try to keep order, but that only worked for a few moments, then the looting would begin again.

They were stealing boxes of candles. An American businessman named Tony who owns two stores nearby barricaded one street to keep looters away. He had armed the two Haitian police with automatic weapons, and they were assisting him, but they were not able to control anything beyond their barricade.

It quickly became a free-for-all. Young men began fighting one another for the stolen items. A number of young men had knives, and planks of wood, screwdrivers and rocks. They were using their improvised weapons to threaten and injure others who had stolen items from the store. The robbers were now being robbed. One group of looters whipped another man with a leather belt. They punched him as well, and they stole the sack of goods he'd just stolen.

I was in the midst of the melee with Charlie Moore, my producer, Neil Hallsworth my cameraman, Vlad Duthiers, my translator, and there was a still photographer from Getty Images with us, photojournalist Jonathan Torgovnik. As things got really out of control, I saw a looter on the roof of the store they'd broken into throw what I think was part of a concrete block into the crowd. It hit a small boy in the head.

I saw him collapse. More chunks of concrete were being thrown at the looters on the roof. The injured boy couldn't get up. He'd try and then collapse again. Blood was pouring from his head. He was conscious but had no control over his body. I was afraid someone on the roof would see him lying there and throw another cinder block piece onto him. I was afraid he'd get killed. No one seemed to be helping him.

I ran to where he was struggling, and picked him up off the ground. I brought him to a spot about a hundred feet away. I could feel his warm blood on my arms. I stood him up, but he was clearly unable to walk. He wiped his bloody face, and I tried to reassure him. He had no idea where he was, and he clearly couldn't walk, so I picked him up again and handed him over to someone behind that makeshift barricade. Tony, the American businessman, gave the boy a wet towel. He was then taken away by someone else. We don't know what happened to him.

I hope he's ok.















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I felt a lump in my throat after reading this story and looking at the gritty images of the injured boy. The people in Haiti are growing desperate with need and have reached the point where the bonds of "civilization" are tearing apart. The people are turning upon each other, stealing, killing, and giving up hope.

To some extent, I find the fact that reporters are crawling around, trying to make a name for themselves by documenting the sufferings of others, to be morbid. And then I read this story, where Anderson is not just remaining aloof, but is taking action when he can, putting himself into danger. After all, he could have been hit by flying debris or shot by careless police who are randomly firing their weapons into the air. I don't imagine that I would be able to just stand around watching the Haitians suffer while I walked around south Haiti with a churro in my pocket, looking forward to returning to the undamaged north to lay in my hotel bed later on.

And so, I have decided that Anderson Cooper, who I already liked, is now the coolest journalist out there. Now, if only hypocrites like Pat Robertson would get their pampered asses off of their thrones, perhaps more help could be delivered now while it is desperately needed.

Jan 16, 2010

Another Reason to Hate China

Chinese police shut down country's first gay pageant
Mr Gay China branded a 'sensitive issue' by officials but event would benefit whole country, say campaigners

Contestant Simon Wang hears the Mr Gay China contest has been cancelled. Photograph: Dan Chung

chinese police shut down the country's first gay pageant tonight, just one hour before the event was due to begin.
Participants hoped the contest would help challenge domestic stereotypes about homosexuality, classified as a mental illness until 2001, and show the rest of the world that gay people could be accepted in China. But officers arrived at a Beijing nightclub shortly before the Mr Gay China competition started and told organisers it was not properly licensed. They are understood to have told the venue's owners that it was "a sensitive issue".
The event was to feature a swimwear round and talent section, but contestants would also have been judged on their ability to represent the gay community. The winner was to take part in the Mr Gay Worldwide final in Norway next month.
"I'm about to cry," said Xue Fei, one of the eight contestants. "We really wanted to promote the sunny side of gay people."
He said he believed the pageant had already achieved some of its aims because advance coverage had highlighted gay issues.
But he added: "It's been a long time since China's reform and opening policies began and I think it really should follow the steps of the international world.
"In China, the population of gay people is large, but many of them cannot live in the sunshine. I really hope we can live with our heads held high and face the world happily."
Another participant, Simon Wang, said he was "disappointed, but not surprised". He added: "I think maybe the reason it was cancelled was because they had too much publicity."
The police officers who came to the venue were friendly and asked questions about homosexuality, said Ryan Dutcher, one of the organisers.
He added: "I'm very disappointed because we worked hard for this event, but I don't see it as a major step back.
"Anyone who's been in China has seen how much the gay community has grown and how people – even the authorities – have become more accepting."
The organisers had hoped the contest would be acceptable to officials because of other recent events. Last year, activists in Beijing held a gay film festival for the first time; previous attempts in 2001 and 2005 were shut down. Shanghai saw the first gay pride festival on the mainland, although some events were cancelled, despite attempts to keep it low-key.
"I think this is a very stupid decision because showing the beauty of gay people to the world is a very positive thing," said Wan Yanhai, a well-known gay rights activist, who arrived at the venue after hearing of the cancellation.
"It would have fostered a good international image of China and benefited not only gay people here, but also China as a whole, because it would have shown the image of a harmonious society with gay people living happily in China."
Gay sex was decriminalised in 1997, but Sara Davis, executive director of the US-based Asia Catalyst, which supports grassroots activists, said the authorities' attitudes towards gay events were still very mixed. "There are progressive elements which show recognising people as gay is not a threat to the government's stability, but also very conservative elements who are threatened by this activity."

"Anyone who's been in China has seen how much the gay community has grown and how people – even the authorities – have become more accepting." -Simon Wang

Jan 15, 2010

朱曉輝 Zhu XiaoHui – The Next Best Thing After Peking Duck

Here’s an import from the asian men, 朱曉輝 Zhu XiaoHui is a model and fitness trainer in Beijing and I must say if my trainer was this hot I’d be in the gym every day (perhaps even twice). love it..


 
 
 
 

Jan 14, 2010

The Devil in Abdulrahim Janjalani



ANTI-GAY assault on DJ Mojo Jojo

The Supreme Court told the Comelec to put a group representing lesbians, gays, bisexuals and transgender (LGBT) back on the list of accredited party-list names that may run in the 2010 elections. It issued a temporary restraining order enjoining the Comelec from implementing its resolution denying the application for accreditation of Ang Ladlad as a party-list group. Ang Ladlad President Danton Remoto earlier said that the Comelec, in disqualifying the group, violated international human-rights laws.

Now that the “Ang Ladlad party” is in full swing, Victorina would like to ask the party leaders what they can do with the brewing situation now at hand. Just today, the AD Board Standards was bombarded with ANTI-GAY messages against gay- activist and popular DJ Mojo Jojo’s “gay” billboard’s all over Manila.
-Victorina Blog

Hate speech example #1

From: Abdulrahim Janjalani
Subject: offensive billboard
To: gigatchalian@gmail.com
Date: Thursday, December 17, 2009, 10:14 AM

I am writing to extend my violent vehemence regarding that Glutamax billboard ad on South expressway because it is offensive to public morals, given the implicit sexual message it gives. it normalizes homosexual sex, a propagandistic act to make homosexuality seem natural when it is not. Homosexuality is a gender identity disorder that needs compassion and care and "cure"(WTF?), not mindless naturalization and normalization. thanks you! i pray you take down this offensive billboard, or we'd rally entire communities of fervent Catholics against this.
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Dear Abdulrahim Janjalani,

Go f--k yourself! (My heart aches for you and your lack of basic civility)

However,

YOU are a total waste of space on this earth. HOW can you espouse such vile and untruthful information for the young people of your country to possibly read?

YOU ought to be ashamed at and disgusted with your foul smelling heart and your misleading untruthful rubbish.

You are a hateful human being Abdulrahim Janjalani and I'm embarrassed for you, your loved ones and at your incredible lack of consideration for humanity and your total lack of decency.
Your total and sad reliance on the Catholic Church and its false teachings with regards to homosexuality will be your eventual undoing.
I'm patient.
We all are.

Read full story @ http://donavictorina.blogspot.com/

Jan 12, 2010

China's first gay pageant gives glimpse of new acceptance

Contest aims to boost community's confidence in country where homosexuality was classed as illness until 2001



Eight men competing in Mr Gay China, which organisers say is a striking sign of how far attitudes to homosexuality have changed Link to this video There's a swimwear round and a talent section where contestants can show off their singing and dancing. But organisers insist the contest to be held this Friday is a serious business. It is China's first gay pageant.
The event is a striking sign of how far attitudes in China have changed and of gay people's increasing confidence. Gay sex was illegal until 1997. Homosexuality was classed as a mental illness for four years after that. Now an emerging gay community is busting stereotypes.
"We are intelligent, we're professionals, we're gorgeous – and we're gay," said contestant Emilio Liu, from Inner Mongolia. "I want the audience to know there are a whole bunch of people like us living in China. It's a wonderful life and it's not hidden any more."
These days there are gay support groups and websites helping people to explore their sexuality and meet potential partners. There are gay venues in most major cities; last year, the first government-backed bar opened in Kunming, in south-western Yunnan. Shanghai held the first Gay Pride week and in Beijing, campaigners called for same-sex marriages.
Now comes Mr Gay China, reported in approving terms in English-language state media. Eight finalists will take to the stage of a Beijing nightclub to strut their stuff in casual clothes and swimwear, exhibit their talents and answer questions. The winner – picked for his ability to represent gay issues as well as his skills, personality and looks – will head to Norway for next month's finals of Worldwide Mr Gay.
"I don't think people were ready before," said Ben Zhang, one of the organisers, recalling the "long and painful" process of discovering and accepting his sexuality, less than a decade ago.
It would be easy to overstate progress since then. Few of the participants are willing to give their full names and several complain about the stereotyping of gay men as weak or HIV-carriers. Strikingly, all are white collar workers and most have studied or worked abroad.
Zhang acknowledges that life is tougher outside the big cities, but says that is why the event is needed: "If this gets seen by some country boy in Ningxia, maybe he will realise 'It's not horrible to be gay and I'm not alone.'"
For many, the biggest issue is invisibility. "People want to stay out of trouble so they stay away from anything different ... It's not necessarily that they're afraid of it or think it's bad. They just don't want to know," said Liu, adding that a handful of friends cut him off after finding out that he was gay.
He said the pressures on gay men in China are different from those elsewhere, not greater, pointing out that there is no religious condemnation and that anti-gay violence is rare. But although Liu,26, says that most friends and family accept his sexuality, he has not come out to his father or grandparents.
"China is a very traditional society," explained Steve Zhang, 30, who works in sales.
Relatives have pestered him for years about finding a girl to marry. "When I finally told my uncle I had a boyfriend he wasn't surprised but said, 'Well, that's not a long term thing,'" Zhang added.
"They think having fun with boys doesn't mean you love them; you will still get married in the end."
The pressure to marry is one reason why some campaigners see gay marriage as a goal, along with legal protection against discrimination. But few expect such changes soon.
Official tolerance is highly variable. Activists and grassroots organisers complain of harassment by the authorities. Websites and publications have been shut down.
And although Shanghai Pride organisers deliberately kept it low key, with no banners or parade, the authorities forced the cancellation of some events.
Despite signs of growing confidence in challenging such actions – last year, gay men faced down police conducting a sweep of a Guangzhou park – most opt for a non-confrontational approach.
Organisers hope to avoid problems by keeping Mr Gay China low-key and did not invite mainstream Chinese-language media.
"Officials could show up and say 'your fire hydrant is in the wrong place," said Zhang. "It is still a sensitive issue."

Jason Abalos talks sexy

 

Does Jason Abalos consider himself a sex symbol?
“Honestly?” Jason laughed. “I don’t. I’m not that confident with my body. There’s a lot of room for improvement here and there.”
Asked to define “sexy,” Jason said, “Sa akin, sexy is beyond the physical; it’s more the dating. You know, how a woman carries herself.”
In 2009, although he wouldn’t admit it, Jason was at his sexiest career-wise, and at his most fulfilling.
“I would say that mas lalo akong nakilala noong 2009,” said Jason who figured prominently in the surveys of local filmdom’s sexiest males. “I was never without work. I was very visible on TV. Nag-overlap pa nga ang TV shows ko (on ABS-CBN). I was in Eva Fonda, Pieta, Nagsimula sa Puso, Kambal sa Uma and Tiagong Akyat (of the Ramon Revilla Agimat starrer series). Marami rin akong guestings sa TV (the last was recently on Maalaala Mo Kaya). I did two indies, both unreleased, Motorcycle (directed by Jon Red) and Rak en Roll (directed by Quark Henares and also starring Glaiza de Castro, Alwyn Uytingco, Ketsup Eusebio and Diether Ocampo).”


But in 2009, Jason was as shy as ever, unable to get out of his being a country boy. (As they say, you can get a boy out of the country but you can’t take the country out of a boy.)
“I want to be more sociable,” he promised. “That’s my New Year’s resolution. And to have more friends.”
His New Year wish?
“Sana more projects just like in 2009. Maski hindi masyadong umangat basta maraming ginagawa.”  
Meanwhile, listen to Jason talk “sexy.”
• Sexiest book he has ever read: “I read crime novels, not romance. Come to think of it, wala pa akong nababasang sexy book. But I do scan sexy magazines like Playboy and FHM pero hindi madalas. Do I have a collection of those magazines? No! Nakikita ko lang sa mga friends ko.”
• Sexiest movie he has ever seen: “You mean, triple-X? I’ve seen a lot especially when I was in high school (in Nueva Ecija). So far, the sexiest movie that I’ve seen is Original Sin (starring Antonio Banderas and Angelina Jolie).”
• Sexiest scene in a movie: “The bed scene of Banderas and Jolie.”
• Sexiest scene he has ever done: “My beach scene with Cristine Reyes in Eva Fonda (the ABS-CBN teleserye). It wasn’t a love scene; we were just running, pero sexy ‘yung shot at sexy tingnan ang pagtakbo namin.”
• Sexiest song he has ever heard: “Birthday Sex, a new song by Drake.”
• Sexiest billboard around the metropolis: “The Bench billboard with Dingdong Dantes at ‘yung kay Angelica Panganiban.”
• Sexiest (musical) instrument: “The harp. Listen to it closely...di ba sexy ang tunog?”
• Sexiest concert he has ever seen: “The one by Katy Perry. I didn’t see it ‘live,’ I just saw it on TV. ‘Yung suot niya sexy, ‘yung movements niya sexy. Babaeng-babae siya kumilos.”
• Sexiest TV show: “Gossip Girl.”
• Sexiest place in his house: “My bedroom. There are mirrors around and I can see myself na talagang ako. You know what I mean. Hahahaha!”
• Food that he associates with sex: “Tahong (mussels).”
• Part of his body that he considers sexy: “My eyes...sabi nila!”
• Part of a woman’s body that he finds sexy: “The boobs. I think doon mo makikita kung gaano ka-sexy ang isang babae.”
• Sexiest pants: “A pair of denims that fits perfectly, hindi masikip at hindi rin naman maluwag. Tamang-tama lang. I feel sexy when I’m wearing that pantalon.”
• Sexiest underwear: “My Cotton Club boxers. I also like the Cotton Club boxers briefs (the one he’s wearing in the photos).”
• Sexiest pictorial he has ever seen: “Cristine Reyes’ pictorial taken on the superhighway, texting while she’s hitchhiking. That reminded me of Diana Zubiri’s sexy pictorial at the top of a flyover in Mandaluyong City.”
• Sexiest pictorial he has ever done: “The one for Cotton Club. That’s the ultimate...so far! Beyond the limits ang ginawa ko as far as I’m concerned. The pictorial took almost one whole day. I’ve been a Cotton Club endorser for two years now.”
• Three women he finds sexy: “Anne Curtis. Cristine Reyes. Rhian Ramos.”

Jan 10, 2010

i would rather


      be the solution than the problem. be an active player than a mere spectator. be simple than complicated. be a man of deeds than a man of empty words. be busy than idle. be a man of integrity than a man of dishonesty. be a good citizen than an instant celebrity. be a peacemaker than a troublemaker. be a friend than an adversary. be a loving than uncaring. be grateful than complain. be a giever than a receiver. be a pro life than anti life.. be a heroic than coward. be better than good. be hopeful than hopeless. be right than wrong. be fair than greedy. be early than late. be clean than dirty. be happy than sad.. inspire than discourage. praise than criticize. reuse than more. smile than frown. have less than more. have a pure heart than a material possessions. serve than be served. PRAY than wast time. blaze a trail than stand still.
BE A CHILD OF GOD.






salamat sa lahat ng tumatangkilik ng aking blog mula nang ito'y aking sinimulan.
salamat sa kuya bryan ko who celebrated his 26th birthday on january 16. thank you for being an inspiration to me. kuya bryan i love you. regards to xian.




almost "ferpect"

 
nice shot......................................................

Jan 9, 2010

“Happy New Year List”

And here’s a “Happy New Year List” drawn up by Dennis Garcia, passed on to metrosexualsociety blog by a reader who requested anonymity:

Health
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a pauper.
3. Eat more food that grows on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for seven hours per night.
10. Take a 10 to 30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.


Personality
11. Don’t compare your life to that of others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy on the positive present moment.
13. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don’t take yourself so seriously; no one else does.
15. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her past mistakes. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum, they appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


Society
25. Call your family often.
26. Give something good to others every day.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and those under the age of six.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life
32. Do the right thing.
33. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. God heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you wake up in the morning, thank God for it.
39. Your innermost is always happy. So, be happy.

Jan 8, 2010

e-mail from certain mar roxas.. love it

Oh and I'd like to share this New Year e-mail that I got from a friend. Amusing but apt for 2010.

bestMacky88


1. Stay out of trouble
2. Aim for greater heights!
3. Stay focused on your job.
4. Exercise to maintain good health.
5. Practice team work.
6. Rely on your trusted partner to watch your back. Take your time trusting others.
7. Save for rainy days.
8. Rest and relax.
9. Always take time to smile.
10. Realize that nothing is impossible.
This should make you smile!

getting to know your inner metrosexual


I apologize for not updating as quickly as I might like. With best r a here as much as he has been there is very little spare time to write, and what little time I have to write I am totally distracted. My mind is off somewhere, far enough away to be of little use to me like now when I need it. 

Best r a has been here two nights, and should be back here again tonight. The first night he arrived with a movie in hand, and a couple of take out boxes of General Tso's chicken, and fried rice from banana leaf -- my favorite place. (Is Jeff slipping him inside info?) I was relieved we didn't have to go back out in the cold, and waste an hour wandering the video store. He picked the movie Angels and Demons, adapted from a book we both read and loved. In fact we both just finished the book's sequel, The Lost Symbol at the same time over Christmas. (Coincidences are a good thing, right?) Tonight will be our third attempt at actually  watching the film, without being distracted. (Hehe!)

The last couple of nights have given us a good start at getting to know each other. The more I learn about him, the more I like. I let him talk for the most part. Eventually he's going to ask personal questions about my past, and I wonder what his reaction will be. Actually, my past is mild by comparison to that of almost anyone else, except for his own. I mean what can I say to a boy who's only just had his first kiss, that won't make him run for the hills? Is he the judgmental type, or will it give him a few ideas? I hope for the latter.

I gave Best r a the stage and I learned a lot! I've always said there are two main things that attract me to another person once the physical attraction has kicked in. First they have to be smart, and second it helps to be funny, and he has plenty of both. Some things I've learned about him are important, others less so. For example he is gay -- not bi, and not curious. He's totally straight acting, but the more we talk the more I discover a definite a metrosexual side. He hates that term, but I offer the following that has come to light in our conversations as evidence:


  • He owns blue silk pajamas.
  • He asked about the thread count in my bedsheets. (!)
  • He uses apricot-scented body scrub, and noticed with approval my own mint shampoo with wheat germ.
  • He knows Aussie Bum is not a lazy guy from Australia.
  • He is disappointed that I've never watched an episode of America's Next Top Model, or Sex in the City.
  • He criticized a friend's new haircut saying, "Bangs are only for those with the bone structure to pull it off." (He didn't actually say this. I just thought it sounded funny.)
  • He is all about Team Jacob, and is shocked when I call Bella a manipulating bitch.
  • He subscribes to Esquire and G.Q. (But to be fair he also gets Sports Illustrated.)
  • He can identify a de Kooning from a Pollock.
  • He spends a shocking amount of time and money scrapbooking. (He'll have something to do with my sisters anyway.)
Don't get me wrong. Nothing is nothing wrong with any of these things. I just need to really nurture my own inner metrosexual.

From now on I'll try to update you right after he goes home, even if its short, to avoid these long gaps between posts. I'll try, but I'll probably just end nodding off with my laptop on.

Jan 6, 2010

VINCENT LACAP from laguna

  first time subject from laguna
although he's been to many VTRs, vincent said this is his first as
a photo subject, he is also into photography...


Model:
VINCENT LACAP

...http://vincent7june.multiply.com/
...freelance model based in laguna

shoot location:
Stella Maris, Pasig City
for my photography portfolio, please check:
my complete portfolio @ http://ianfelixalquiros.multiply.com
my events/creative team @ http://www.mensroomph.com
for photography rates & packages, kindly email me at ianfelix@yahoo.com


(photo and story are credit to sir ian felix alquiros)

Vincent Lacap

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Jan 5, 2010

between a rock and a hard thing

happy 2010, this is First post of the year for me and the last one of my vacations *everybody goes buuuu* I know I know, and now that all the festivity rush is almost gone -because in manila  we also celebrate "3 kings" which is on January 4th to commemorate the day the 3 wise men got to see Jesus [or something like that] and have lots of presents for the small children and eat what we call "Rosca de Reyes"- we can all go back to our normal lives at last. Won´t say I didn´t enjoy the holidays -because no one likes nagging- but I will say that they were so  meh, they´re not even worth mentioning.

What intrigues me is now that distractions are gone, now that  it´s a new year, now that I´m -almost- out of school, NOW WHAT??

I think I should find a paying job, but my current job as a volunteer for the LGBTQ community down side is I don´t get payed and never will be, but no longer have any savings and can´t ask my parents for money because honestly, they don´t have any, I knew this job was only temporary but I grew to love it so much I don´t want to go anywhere.

Also I want to get into a Master´s degree, so I have to be careful about the dates and more importantly have to go through a selection process which really scares me shit-less, not sure I´m up for the level of the institution, besides from little experience in the area.




mcky88

Guess this kind of thoughts usually erupt from every finish contract now and then though.There´s a saying I love from Lucius Annaeus Seneca which states "If one does not know to which port one is sailing, no wind is favorable". So right now I know I have to go somewhere, time for me to move again, hate being stagnant in a place even a place I love so much as work, have to get some long-term goals -at which I suck- and get up in my two shoes for a change, but I still don´t know what I´ll be doing next 6 months, too much at the moment.



Also I´m still looking for that person that makes me  go *Aww* at night

 

As the heart I so wanted seems to already been taken.


Any ways, sorry about the rambling, should´ve warned you before had to get this out some way or another.


Love to all
bestmacky
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